softly float snowflake tears upon a whimpering wind
slowly creeps cold dismay, encasing a once warm heart in fear
cracks of doubt forewarn the shatter storm.
oh little brown beetles how i loath thee.
You buzz and bounce, blissfully of my sealing. Seemingly
to annoy me.
Should i catch you in your flight,
careful not to grip to tight,
and throw you out the window, door.
please oh please
stay away for ever more.
Why cannot I cry?
Why will you not let me bleed?
let me shed my sorrow ,
let me drown out my pain,
let me howl and wail ?
Rend free my soul from its eternal torment
in this change of flesh i am trapped
forgotten
alone.
Oh Father please let my tears flow, thick with sorrow and remorse for what I have done and what has been done too me.
let my blood flow so I may once more be pure for those whom I love.
Let not my soul be so tormented. Let me transcend this corporeal form.
This I beg of Thee my father. Amen.
Give onto me your sorrow your pain.
Wish me to be your blood your sacrifice
Give onto me your hopes your dreams, shattered all in vain
Wish me to be your poison your bane
Forge me in the windows of your soul
Fill me with from your heart
Wish for me to be all that you lost, all that you hope to gain
then...
Let me slide
Let me fall
Let me shatter and die
Send me forth with a murderous wail
And be purged!
Wipe away my trace on your cheek.
Dry the wells of your eyes.
Once more smile and rejoice for I am dead.
I take you by the hand. I try to ease your pain,
yet fear the meaning to relieve there of.
we gather by your side
holding hands wishing,
praying for your safe return to our lives, our hearts
your breath grows thin, our tears grow thick
with one last gentle breeze you pass from ours to the next
all fears do pass for it is done
oh but to be afraid. As in its stead deepest darkest dismay doth grow
the pain of loss drives deep into our hearts
it empties the wells of our eyes.
Yet through the wall of tears and pain, we do commend you to our heavenly Father and thank him for the time he did grant us to be with
As I set off once more to that dark, forsaken place
I need not your help
your sympathy
nor your grace
as I battle against depression, anxiety
I need not your comfort
nor support
as I trudge through sorrow and pain
I need neither your sadness
nor your tears
As I search endlessly for a will to live
I need not your reasons
nor your rhyme
For to find the strength to carry on I need only you
... to know you love me
and will be waiting, smiling warmly upon my return
Do you know me?
Have you seen me?
I was never here…
I am but a fond memory
A fleeting sensation of joy
A lovable idea.
I was never here…
You do not know me
You cannot see me
Who are you to judge?
You who cannot feel
You who cannot see
I was never here…
I am lost to myself
A stranger to my memory
The decrepit wish for joy
A lonely idea.
I was never here…
i long for numbing pain
to drown out the million voices cry of my oppressed mind.
the screeching blade
to cut free my muted soul and let bleed my emotions still.
so i may rest soundly and awake in silence ever more .
softly float snowflake tears upon a whimpering wind
slowly creeps cold dismay, encasing a once warm heart in fear
cracks of doubt forewarn the shatter storm.
oh little brown beetles how i loath thee.
You buzz and bounce, blissfully of my sealing. Seemingly
to annoy me.
Should i catch you in your flight,
careful not to grip to tight,
and throw you out the window, door.
please oh please
stay away for ever more.
As the light breaks oer my bed,
Splintered through the branches of a tree,
It fails to light my heart, my mind, my soul.
My heart heavy with battles lost and won,
of loved ones come and gone.
My mind rife with questions,
riddled by space and time.
My soul sad with uncertain dreams,
Lost hopes and desires,
And all fear the future.
Oh! The future that like a broken mirror doth lay before me.
A mirror of uncertain truths in which,
I fail to see myself.
The future, the dune of my life
ever changing in the wind,
the sands of time.
As the light fades from my sight,
I try to gasp it,
I call to it,
but to no avail.
As we do take the sons of nature,
So too do her daughters take from us.
for
The storm she comes
And soon,
All shall tremble under thunderous bolts of light.
Death shall rain in drops of life,
Till all the earth has turned to water,
Streets to rivers,
plains to marsh and houses
to watery tombs of death.
Dreams are lost,
Lives are shattered,
But when new dawns break,
All shall be renewed.
The dept repaid.
Current Residence: The dark Depts of my mind... or other more dubious locations ;3 Favourite genre of music: ... silence Operating System: Windows 2000pro, Vista MP3 player of choice: WinAmp Personal Quote: can i eat it? ^.=.^
Its been ages since I've really been active, and so I am going to actively try to be active.
Gonna try and put the angsty poems away and put up some cute and lively ones. Wish me luck :P
Welcome to MysticRealm
{i am reposting this journal in an attempt to revive MystickRealmRP as requested by a few of the old players. I will leave the old Journal here Old journal i hope we can work together to breath new life into our beloved world}
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First five people to comment on this entry get a free DOODLE from me. Oh, and you gotta do this for five other people too. If you do this, you must post this in your journal and do 5 doodles for other people.
i fell face first into this one >.=.<
## Update : okies so i have commented on a bunch of these journals so i'm opening up 5 more doodle slots >.=.<
1. [x] SilentJ1 (https://www.deviantart.com/silentj1) - Random doodle. http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/37469482/
2. [x] TalonArana (https://www.deviantart.com/talonarana) - Dragon doodle. ^.=.^ http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/41762875/
3. [] VanGroan (https://www.deviantart.com/vangroan) - Speedy: undead at a feast. =p
4. [] spikedforlife (https://www.deviantart.com/spikedforlife) - " :jedi: " ;p